Idol Worship, Bitterness, and a Stubborn Heart.....

Deuteronomy 29:17-19 (New Living Translation)
17 You have seen their detestable practices and their idols made of wood, stone, silver, and gold. 18 I am making this covenant with you so that no one among you—no man, woman, clan, or tribe—will turn away from the Lord our God to worship these gods of other nations, and so that no root among you bears bitter and poisonous fruit.

19 “Those who hear the warnings of this curse should not congratulate themselves, thinking, ‘I am safe, even though I am following the desires of my own stubborn heart.’ This would lead to utter ruin!

I don't even have anything to say about this scripture. It cut my heart and I am going to have to pray about it.

TAKING RESPONSIBILITY

Who is responsible? Who is responsible for my overeating or my eating foods that are not good for my body or for my turning to food when I should be turning to God? Who is responsible? Who was responsible when the doctor said you have 3 fibroid tumors 3 cm, 8 cm and 9 cm? Who was responsible when the doctor said you won't be able to give birth to children because you have PCOS? Who is responsible?

I have the ability to take responsibility for my behavior. I have made attempts at taking responsibility for my behavior.....but nothing has been lasting.

What will it take for me to take responsibility for my actions I often ask myself?

I have come to the realization that taking responsibility is a choice even when I feel as if I am stuck or paralyzed in my circumstances.

Today I am making a different choice.

I feel called to do a 10 day fast. I will be documenting my progress on my blog. If anyone wants to join me please feel free. I will be starting on January 2nd.

Matthew 6:25-34
25 “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
28 “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31 “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.